There’s been a couple times in my life where I’ve had gut instincts about the “next step”. This started when I was 17 and has now continued until the age of 35.
17 – Bailed on college and toured in a band
22 – Moved to L.A. to figure shit out
24 – Moved back to NJ to go to school
31 – Proposed to my love
35 – Got divorced (OK this wasn’t my decision)
This takes us to the present day and my gut is telling me to sell 98% of the things I own, get in my car and see what’s next. So that’s what I am doing.
If you’d like to skip the next part of this just scroll down to see how you can help me sell or give away all of my stuff.
I’ve noticed in the past year that I just can’t find true happiness. That might be due to the fact that I still live in the same apartment that I shared with my ex wife. Here’s a tip to anyone out there who is breaking up with someone or getting divorced… Do NOT stay in the same place you both lived in together. This is a very bad idea. In the beginning I thought I was fine but about 7 months in shit started to go downhill.
Depression is not a fun thing. Here’s what happens when you’re depressed:
- You are constantly tired and all you want to do is crawl up in bed and hide from the world
- When you wake up all you think about is that you have X amt of hours until you go back to bed
- You feel like you don’t have a purpose
- You have no drive
- Nothing excites you
- Listening to sad songs while drunk is WAY worse than normal
Some people out there take extreme measures and completely “check out”.
I’ve been pretty bad this year but I’m not a bitch who would do something stupid like that. I’m especially not a weak individual who would burn or cut themselves because I felt the world didn’t love me like some piece of shit Dr. that I know of…
NOTE: I get that I have some serious anger towards the fuck who used to be my friend and basically cornered my ex when she let him know she was leaving me to confess his love to her but someday I will let it go. Today is not that day and I hope someone cuts off that stupid ponytail and explains to him what soap is.
I accept that my head is in a dark place at times but I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I am typically a happy person and would like to get back to that place. That’s why I am going to do some traveling around the country to figure shit out.
“That’s crazy!” some of you have said. I get it. It’s a bit intense but you would do the same thing if you had nothing holding you back.
“Oh well yeah that’s pretty true.” No fucking shit it’s true.
At the end of the day my business is virtual and I can grow it from anywhere. Plus I think it would benefit me greatly to hang out in some cities where there’s a boom in Startups. They are a pretty good target for me and growing a network around the country is a pretty solid idea.
So where will you go Mike? Well, to start I’m going to head to Austin, TX for a little bit and hit up some cities on the way down. I plan on leaving NJ the first week of March. If you’d like to offer up a couch that would be greatly appreciated. I also plan on using Airbnb and other sites that help with traveling. I’ll probably head up through Cali to Portland Oregon after I get my fill of Austin.
My plan is to document this as well with blogging, videos, photography, etc. I’ve let a piece of myself go lately and forgot how much I love to create. I think this would be pretty cool to look back on when I finally figure out what’s up. I also threw out the idea to create a documentary this summer with my man Fat Tony. The details of that are hush hush.
I am not sure how long I will be gone. Maybe a month, maybe 6, possibly a whole year. Maybe I’ll find a place that I really love to live in. Maybe I will find a new love who will appreciate me and have my back as much as I would theirs. Maybe I will find a second business to grow. Maybe I will become a photographer and tour with bands I love. The sky is the limit. All I know is that I need to feel alive again and this is my way of doing it.
ON THAT NOTE, I need to sell and give away all of my shit in 23 days. Here’s what I have:
- Tempurpedic bed
- 46′ Samsung Flat screen 1080p
- Taylor Made Golf clubs
- Night stand
- American Telecaster Guitar
- American Jazz Deluxe Bass with active pick ups
- Dining room table
- Wine rack
- Some kind of table that’s against my way which looks really nice
- Wall wine rack
- Dishes from Crate and Barrel
- Glassware from Crate and Barrel
- Mini amp
- Humidor that can fit close to 100 cigars
- Bose speaker with iPod dock
- Slow cooker
- Interfit box lights
- Other stuff
TO GIVE AWAY:
- Mountain bike with rack to keep it in your apartment
- Giant fake plant
- Aloe plant
- Tons of other stuff
I’m thinking of having an indoor garage sale for friends before I go. I’ll post something on facebook if that’s the case. All I know is that all of this stuff has to go and will be pretty cheap. You can leave comments below if you are interested in anything. I will not ship anything so you will have to be able to pick it up.
I’m pretty stoked and super freaked out at the same time that I am going to technically be homeless in less than a month but it’s kind of invigorating. Like I said in the beginning of this post, I know my gut instinct and it’s telling me to go. So I’m just going to go and see where it leads with no plan of what to expect. I hope you enjoy watching this unfold because I plan on making this epic.